Want It. Believe It. Stay There.
The audacity of desire and the discipline of faith in 2026
Beloved Friend,
Happy New Year!! đ„łđ
2026 is here, loud and bright, and I am writing this in high spirits.
I have noticed something about my life. Whenever I desire something earnestly, I mean really desire it with my whole chest, everything somehow starts aligning for it to happen. Scripture says all things work together for good, and I have watched that play out in very practical ways.
I could be in school, craving a new phone, with my account balance nowhere near half of the budget. Yet the moment that desire settles in my heart, it becomes all I think about. I dream about it. I talk to Abba about it casually, confidently, like it is already on the way. Somehow, resources begin to gather themselves.
In 400 level, I remember talking with my friends. One of us mentioned wanting to change her phone because it was malfunctioning. I said I wanted to change mine too. Lolade laughed and said, âDonât mind her o. Paepae will act like she doesnât have money. Just watch, sheâll change it soon.â
She wasnât wrong. It had become a pattern.
What she didnât know was that I was being honest. I really did not have the money at that point. What I had was desire without doubt. Somehow, mercy would locate me. Surprise funds would come in. Birthday gifts would suddenly be monetized. I would check my balance and realize I had just enough, sometimes even enough for accessories. God has a sense of humour, clearly.
I have seen this same thing happen with help, opportunities, and specific needs. As long as the desire is aligned with Godâs will and I do not entertain doubt, it happens. Scripture says that when we delight ourselves in the Lord, He grants the desires of our hearts. I am learning that delight produces trust, and trust sustains desire.
However, the moment doubt creeps in, even quietly, things begin to sink.
Peter walked on water until fear entered the conversation. The moment I start listening to internal voices of what if, external voices of âbe realisticâ, or subtle reasoning that contradicts what God has said, faith wavers. Even if I try to hype myself afterward, once doubt has been allowed to plant roots, I often do not see what I desired or what the Lord spoke.
There have been moments I resisted doubt like a plague. I refused to negotiate with it. I decided that over this matter, I would see the goodness of God. Some people called it stubbornness. I wrote about that kind of stubbornness before, the kind that refuses to bow to anything except Godâs word.
Now, this is where it matters most.
Desire is not just for things. Desire is even more potent when it is directed toward God.
If what you are longing for this year is deeper intimacy with God, it is possible.
If it is a life of quiet, wholesome purity, it is possible.
If it is alignment so deep that you are not constantly rededicating your life every other month, it is possible.
If it is consistency in prayer, clarity in hearing God, tenderness of heart, and obedience that does not feel forced, it is possible.
A songwriter once wrote, âYouâre the longing of my heart, the desire of my life, Youâre the sweetness to my soul, Jesus my all in all.â
Longing for God is not dramatic. It is steady. It is choosing Him again and again without entertaining doubt about His willingness to meet you. The same way desire pulls provision together, holy desire pulls alignment, grace, and strength together.
Scripture says those who know their God shall be strong and do exploits. Not those who know about Him. Not those who visit Him occasionally. Those who know Him.
This year, dare to desire without doubting. Dare to believe ferociously. Guard your heart from subtle unbelief, especially when it sounds logical and well meaning.
God did not play it safe by sending His Son. Jesus did not play it safe when He dismantled systems, confronted darkness, and secured our redemption. We should not play it safe with faith, purity, or pursuit.
Want it.
Pray it.
Believe it.
Stay there.
It is possible.
It can happen.
And this year, you will see it.
I love you with the love of the Lord, and, I desire to see you enjoy wholesomeness.
With thoughts of kindness,
ABBAâs Shofar